once again i am here to talk about my grivences in life. who knows why i make myself go through all this stuff.. i kinda put myself up to it. and knowing that i can't do it i fail. life is a hard thing. dying is also a hard thing. one day. when i get the courage. mayb i will try dying... but for the time being. i can only think of what it would be like after i die. ok, my aunt is thinking of moving to toronto. who will care for me when my parents leave too? answer: friends. mayb.. if i still have any that care. so i might move up too! so i have six years. "i need to make the best of these six years" is never going to happen because i've already screwed the beginning of the six years haha... o wellz im a messed up person anyways. so if i do leave. all i have to say is. bye friends who still care i'll come back to visit. and i love you all very much... tada. ok im done.. not vry much grivences. but grief is all in the heart. not meant to be poured into computers beter to talk to inanimate things. like stitch!... yes yes.. i will slowly go insane...
once again i am here to rant and rave about my life... i hate this world right now... ppl that r friends.. or i call them friends make plans w/o me... hmm welll iono they mite have a good reason but w/e theres many things that r preventing me frm doing what i want to do.. y does life have to be like this y cant i live life the way i want to live it... teachers are fcuktards... i hate them they give me all this shit to do nd omg!... y do ppl have to do this to me... *sigh* im losing my grip on things once again i really want to be optimistic and think everything will be okay but the more i think about it these days... the more i know im fooling myself.. things will never be okay... nd things will never be over... i don't know how much longer i can take this... i feel like everything is falling apart again... it was great while it lasted.. the fact that i had a grip on most of the things in my life... i agree with what francis said... the point of life is to wait for death... welpp.. ok im done ranting nd raving... nd now i needa go do more shit... i hate this world.. when will all this pain and suffering end. one day... one day when i get the courage to take that knife....
i cant stand it nymore!!! garrr!!!! im gonna die sum day because of stress shuda listend to mom in freshman summer *sigh* hella shuda juz transferred skoo nd b a slacker yet still get A's hahahaha o wellz... i chose the path to take evn tho its a horrible one... i have.. uhh friends =] yay go friends but then again most of them r smarter.. so im just... uhh feeling stupid around them.. but its also nice to have them help me... when they're not busy or nythin... hmm wut else... im not so much confused about things nymore i guess i've thought things thru... not my problem... i dont think about it... hahaha... bleh... grey is in the air as usual... iono y... depression is getting at me again... but then again i've stopped all that.. uhh hurting stuff... bleh ok gotta go baii
Now i know y u have to leave I hope you finish whatever you need to do and Come back safely and you said u wud b gone for good hehe o wellz hmm wut now... im tired nd wanna slp but i have hw for the past few days i've been feeling vry... fatigued.. iono y i must get more slp 2n. so i wont b slpy at skoo... God Help Me be Strong! =]