3:15 pm

I'm just not cut out for..

Current mood: relaxed
Lolzz. I don't even know why I'm writing this. I guess I'm just bored and when I'm bored I think to hard on things. But this idea of mine keeps popping back up whenever I talk to some one. Not verbally, duh! It just swims around in my mind. ((Maybe I don't say anything, because I'm so used to the delay between what I do/say..to how some one reacts to it. That's why I'd rather type about it. It gives me a chance to think about it better, or just forget about it. It's a comfort factor. Don't take it hard.))

Yea.. so anyways, I was talking to my new forming friend, and something came up about relationships.. >.> Fun stuff. Don't ask. Anywayz, I never knew, well I did... I just never wanted to pay attention to it though.. But I have a lot of "dudefriends". Which is totally coolness ^.^ (I heart Marmel) But I've never had a guyfriend.. Like how PB is to J, or Milk is to Cereal, or Yani is to KM.. (I heart Nam Nawk). (( And here comes those couple of dudes who asked me out. Chea, you asked me out.. But aren't I suppose to feel the same about you?...-audience: "Buuuurn!"- lolzzz.. )) Yea.. I've built up a tolerance about it, so I'm not so down in the dumps about it.. ((I'm too odd to be some one's girlfriend..lolzzz I mean I heart Yaoi.. That's gonna be hard to break that to some unsuspecting guy when I go through my Yaoi cycle.. Which is almost ending.. Hmm...after yaoi comes. Book-books.. like with words.. I already started.. I bought two yesterday when I went with ma to Barnes and Nobles.. I really wanted to go to Borders, but whatevers.. Yea..so back to topic..))

Chea.. I guess I forgot what I was gonna put...hmm. Well, I guess, I just wanted to say that I'm not bothered.. ((Cause that's what I told Kwan Man.. "Hi Kwan Man!".. >.> She was gonna help find someone for meh.. But I said no.. <.< Guys are trouble.. and I'm enough trouble as it is.. ^.^ ))

Currently reading:
The Laughing Corpse (Anita Blake Vampire Hunter (Paperback))
By Laurell K. Hamilton
Release date: By 24 September, 2002
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8:23 pm

What can I say..?


Current mood: indescribable Hey there peoples.. What's up. Boy oh boy, the school year is just a couple days away from ending. Fun stuff.. I'm like scare, excited, worried, nervous, and whatnot. It's crazy, plus I still have to do that stupid english thing.. Okay so maybe it isn't stupid.. But it's just stressing meh out.

Hmm.. Oh, over Memorial Weekend, I went to Boston.. Fun stuff that was.. It was odd. Or maybe it was just me that was odd. I dunno, but I just didn't feel like, hey..I could totally bond with people here. I mean I had nothing against them, it was just... Maybe you had to be there to feel it. And maybe if you were there, you still wouldn't feel anything I felt. It was as if there was this thick blanket of uneasyness that covered the whole house. Or course Jr and Bk couldn't feel it, they were to busy going outside and to the park to play basketball or playing video games, or including me in there "missions" (I was agent 13..yep..Fun stuff.) But chea..I acted like a total recluse and didn't want to bother anyone in the day time. I guess that's why my cousin thought I was alergic to the sun-light. Lolzz.. Hehee. Hmm.. What else you ask? Well I did read a book while I was there. It might not have been Crime and Punishment.. But it was a book nonetheless.. It was soooo good.

Ok, ok.. This lady, Laurell KH. Oh my gosh!! I love reading her books. Ok, ok.. I read Guilty Pleasures, and then I read...something twilight.. (oy that's sad.. I would look it up but I don't wanna get up and search for it. If you really wanna know what the title is I'll tell you, but I highly doubt that you'd care that much.) And and..I read Micah! I started yesterday and ended it a couple of hours ago.. It was crazy.. But the thing was that I missed like a whole bunch of books in between Guilty Pleasure and Micah.. >.< Now I have to go back.. Which I don't mind doing.. But...oy

Yea..So I just came up here to put something in.. Cause I didn't in a while.. Chea..
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6:47 pm

Chapter 2 and a New one..

Current mood: determined
Okay.. So LMLY is in full swing (-ish writting the second chapter-)
I heart writing. Especially online. Tis coolness. Anywayz, yea I so do love when people read what I write (Even though when ppl read this I get freaked out)
Anywayz, yea... Fun stuff that is.
Yea so um.. I'm starting a new story which is gonna involve Shikamaru and Temari.. (( It's not Yaoi but it's sure darn close.. They're so cute together.. Even though they're not really "together". Don't worry, it takes time.))

Um what else.. Oh yea.. Before I was gonna say that Rasheeda used to read my stories. She said she liked them, so I guess that was a plus. But that was way back when, when I couldn't write really good stuff. I tried and sometimes it would come out weird. She still said she like them though.. Aww I heart Rasheeda.. (( u.u She wasn't in school today so I was "stuck" with Aisha.. Not that that was a bad thing.. I was just saying.. >.> ))

Don't hurt meh..
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9:01 pm

Okay..

So.. I'm starting my story right. And it's gonna be a Darkstalkers AU. Which is groovy and whatnot. So far I'm working on the first chapter, and it's going well I think. I mean.. It's my first ever fanfic so I can get somethings messed up. This is just a test story. Just a test.

Anywayz, what else.. Omgosh! I was at dA right and I was in this chatroom where this one dude posted something right. T'was a link to youtube showing off some video. So I clicked it and lolzzzz XD Tis funnyness.. Like whoa..
I don't have the site right now, but you could go to YouTube and search for "Ask a Ninja" and you should come up with something.. You know.. When I find it again.. I'll totally post it up on my profile page.. Muhuhahahah!! XD
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9:54 pm

I guess I'm an author now..

Yea.. I signed up to Fanfiction(dot)net. Tis cool. But you know what the weird thing is? When I went to go and sign up, it said that I already had a pen name with my Hot Ice Hilda email address.. Which was kinda hard to believe. But I checked and I did! "Silver-Haired-Suichi" was my pen name. Do you realize how old that name is? Like atleast 4 years old. Like what!? But yea..
I made a new name, Yuitsu Seme. Lolzz? Yea. But the booty thing about it is that I have to wait three days before I can start my story. Wtfudge? Oy.. All this trouble I have to go through.
Yea.. So anywayz, I need a pairing to work with for my first story. I don't know who/what I'm gonna work with for the first piece, but hopefully it'll come out good. Chea.. Hopefully.
Anywayz, um..What else happened... Hmm..
Oh! Tell me how mad people cheat at Dots!? Why would you want to cheat at that game anyway!? OMGOSH! It was so beast that it wasn't even funny. 'Cause see.. What had happened was.. Kevin and I went to yahoo games and was playing Dots. (Which is the same thing like Squares) Anyway, we were playing with this chick who was cheating like whoa! I mean.. Come on now.. How are you gonna play me like that. I was almost gonna cry the way she was treating me. And all Kevin did was laugh.. I bet he wet his pants how hard he was laughing.. u.u Never.. Never again will I play that game.. Ok.. So maybe not never. But not anytime soon. oy.
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9:47 pm

Fanfiction for me? (yesterday)

Ok.. I've been thinking this over, for a while now too. It's about me starting a fanfiction (which is.. for those who don't know what the fell I'm talking about, a story about certain characters in an anime, game, movie, show, almost anything made by the fan of said things.)

 But what I was wondering was, if I were to start one, who would it be about? Of course one of them would be a yaoi paring.. Maybe even a yuri.. >.> But chea..And I was wondering if I could start one of my own stories. Like with my own characters.. (Like Violet or Netoshi).. Aww dude, that would be totally radical.. >.< ((sidenote: Thank Salina for starting up the whole "surfer" tongue.. >.> I can't stop saying/typing dude for every little thing.. Which isn't all that bad.. But... I sound like a surfer, which I'm not... -couldn't surf if her life depended on it-))

Anywayz, chea.. It was just brought to my attention again. Cause I was reading one of //Aza's fanfictions ((sidenote: It's uber good Oranges)) And now I want to do one.. I'm such a copycat.. u.u I cry

Yea..So if I wrote one would anyone want to read it? And what would it be about.. I just have to answer those questions before I start it up..

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7:27 pm

Another one of my random poems.. (Even though this is the first time I'm posting one.

I usually don't have a title for my poems as they are randomness and I can't think of a randomie name to give it.. So more often than not.. they don't have a title? Anywayz.. I like/love to write in my stream of consiousness.. (even though I can't spell).. Anywayz, here it is..>.>

sing for me
my Angel
's voice,
that lets me
live,
  breathe,
     Smile
for me
my demon
's devilish
delight-I devour
so eagerly
   missing
-ly
unwishing me
this mel
-ancholy of
  sweet thoughts,
    if lustful tastes.
Ah..
Leave my mind in
pieces,
  in echoes of your
songs; my smiles.
     Have me undo
your soul, sewing
Stitches,
sealing sour
angelic sprites
who's
lost their
"soldamned" sensations.
Have me
redo you
self, a being
begging,
  bullying,
     bunching,
randomstrophic thoughts
of beginnings lost
Into a be-
here Today.
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9:57 pm

Yea.. (April 22 2006)

Yea..
Current mood: annoyed

I'm so tired.. Why am I even typing this?
Because you can't think of doing anything else.. And you'd rather not go to sleep..
OH yea.. That sounds about right..

Well before I freak any more ppl out. Let me just say that this four day school week has been "fell". I mean.. Come on now. Woods, Saulnier.. Lay off the evil teach routine. It's like crazy. I can hardly stay awake in some classes cause of them. It's like Homework and more homework. And me, with A.D.D. and seinoritis, can do any of it. (( But I'm gonna have to this weekend. >.< )) Yea so.. ADD.. oooooh watch my icon go...

Anywayz, what else. Oh yes.. My ma.. omgosh. It's like an on and off thing with her. It's crazy. Like she got angry at me earlier this week (which I could understand this one) for coming home like around 8:30 without calling her. She's like, you can't be out this late on a school night and whatnot.. How come I didn't call.. and blah blah blah.. (( Of course I was paying attention to her.. I just can't recall what she told me during the "blahs" )) Yea..so I just thought that's why she'd been angry at me. But for this long. It's like every five seconds she finds something new, a new reason, to be angry at me. What the fell..  (( sidenote: She totally ignored me like yesterday , Wednesday. During dinner.. Omgosh.. She had cooked right.. and I was mad tired and took a nap on the floor.. Ginge was laying right next to me.. But whatevers. She's like, "Raquel, I'm done cooking." So I'm like okay and I get up and get my plate out and feed myself. Cause I'm a big girl and whatevers, right. Then jr gets his stuff right and she's talking away with him. I wasn't even there.. -sigh- So it wasn't even like I really cared until she was putting away the rest of the food. Maybe it was me..I dunno, but she only asked Jr if he wanted anymore before she packed it away. What? How was she so sure that I might have not or might have wanted some, huh? Get's on my nerves. Boils my blood. Anywayz, I need to calm down before I pop a blood vessel. DRIVES ME CRAZY!!! >< ))

I think I can blame part of my sleeplesslyness on her. I haven't been able to sleep.. Well that's a lie.. I have been able to. But it's weird. Like I've been going to bed around 12midnight, right. And then I'll wake up around 5 in the morning.. Oy, and I'm like.. go back  to sleep.. >.< But then when I go back to sleep I always get up late. >.< Oy, anywayz... um yea.. Fun stuff..

I dunno.. I can't think anymore.. I'll type to this thing later..

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9:56 pm

(April 22, 2006) I Yahoo Rp as a guy..?

This is the first and maybe the only time that I post one of my many yahoo chars up here. I'm bored and have no one to rp with so just tell me what you think okay? Fun stuff. Anywayz, my char's pro is: http://profiles.yahoo.com/blissful_requiem

Anywayz. I was trying multi and it turned out as such (sidenote: I didn't check for spelling or anything and this is me "IC" in character.. I know I'm a loser, but I love making stories and this helps with the language and format.. I dunno. Rp is cool when I don't have to multi-beast like this. I usually para.. >.> ):

A bow out of courtesy. "Of course, M'lady." A gesture of a well mannered man. "Oh, how your beauty captures my heart tonight." Movements; slight movements of the waist and the hands. Dark amber eyes that lead to the depths of his forever unwavering; unchanging soul. His expression had to be articulate and well defined in order to fill the requirements of a mortal man. The women always seemed to have this sense of a person, just by their actions. Actions; certain fluxuations in his movement had to be just right, and imperfection had to be put away; hidden from all peering eyes. All of his demonic flaws were sheilded away; beneath his icy alabaster skin. The men, the women, the overpowering aroma and scent that these mortals gave off, would drive any vampire to their knees. However he was no ordinary immortal. "Ah, Madam Price. I have heard so much about you. What a lucky night this is." Her hand, he took and laid his kiss upon her skin. Not too long, for she might realize the difference, his 'perfectness', but not too quickly, might she think of him rudely. "And you are..?" His accent was light, slightly unnoticable as he spoke this soft words to her. However his face told a different story. He was not from this place; not a native, nor a person from any region close to Versailles. His features gave the impression of a man of asian decent. But of course, these people new nothing out of their circle of influence. "My name, I will give to you my fair lady. But first, may I show you something that might pique your intrests. For it seems that you are not enjoying yourself here." A voice so sweet it was like a sin to ignore. "Please, it won't take that long. Trust me..." The over coat of his apparel was the highest fashion of this time. It was not too extravagant for a person of his class, nor was it too simple to be grouped off with the nobodies of this gathering. Hunter green. It was a grat contrast to his being. To the look and angle of his body. The light creame lace shirt that lay underneath, made the whole piece come together. His hair was short enough, just shoulder's lenght and--- Ah,the hunger lust, which was buring up inside, was almost too much for him to hold back any longer. Just a taste. Just a draught, then maybe perhaps.. His eyes caught sight of her lovely neck. It tormented his thoughts, as if it mocked him and his weakness. Images, thoughts, all of which he sent to her, luring her out of the light, into the starry sky that shown above. The balcony that hung above the breath taking garden. His eyes crept and searched the grounds for anything moving. Nothing. It was safe for him; save to endulge himself. Not too quickly, I must control myself. It would be a waste to devour her so rapidly. "This place, I've seen it before, young man. Why did you lead me here?" His hand found hers again. The softness of her smooth skin. How the feeling tingled and teased his 'lifeless' hands. How many women such as she, has been in such a situation? Slowly her wrist lifted to the icy lips of yours truly. A kiss, a sweet kiss. and a swift bite. It shocked his mind. It's been too long, the blood of a human.. Oh it's been far too long. Why had he been fasting.. Why had he been-- "What..what ever are you doing, young man? Let go of my--" His grip loosened and his gaze locked on with hers. Eyes meeting eyes. That's all that was needed of him to silence her. A kiss to the cheek and a kiss to her neck. Ah, the torture he loved to put himself through. Why not finish it now? Why not take-- But it had already been done. The skin flushed and gave him a glow that would no longer give him that ghastly look. The woman sprawled at his feet. He needed her no more. "Ah, that was a bit too quick. If only I could control myself. Heh.." Her body, he proped up and walked back into the sweet scent of the ball he had left for that moment. Like prayers, the wishes of many swam in his head, drowing out his consciousness. Sudden drinks would often leave him in a frenzy of sorts. Concentrate.. Concentrate.. Why couldn't he get all of these images out of his head? It throbbed only for a second and gave way to a single voice. A voice that overshadowed the rest. "Who is she..?" She lay on the steps, nearly passed out from the garnments she wore. His steps were light. Ladies swooned as he passed, while men plotted their evil intentions to do away with him. His movement stopped as his back rested against the pillar, which stood infront of the staircase. "You need to take it slowly there. It might be dangerous for your health in those clothes..."

 

(Remember.. This is a guy char.. >.< Just look at the link for the profile. Anywayz, what you think? It's mad long, ne? Crazyness.. )

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9:55 pm

(April 13, 2006) Eye heart definitions..

omgosh!! Omgosh!! Guess what.. I was totally bored right..Well sorta.. Anyway some guy was talking to me and used the word "effiminate" Now.. I know a lot of words but for some reason this one stumped meh. So like a good girl, I typed it in Google. (Fun stuff) Anyways I clicked the first link.. Which lead me to www.urbandictionary.com

Omgosh!! Lolzzz I love that site! I was looking up so many words.. You should check it out too (hence the cool link thing)

Anywayz..oh oh let me put what I searched for:

effiminate
effin
Double u tee eff? ((XD))
roffle
teh
L337 (( Yea I already knew what it meant.. I just wanted to see if they had it.. >.> ))
Aural sex? (( o.o please tell me that no one really does that ))
rp
n00b
Newb
owned
Pwnd
wangster
fronting
burn
ballers and Ballerz
snooker
already
ALT + 0133 (This was like the only one that I really didn't know about)
ALT + F4 ((Lolzz))
metro
metric ass ton (I couldn't help it)
dude
Squid
geek
nerd
Dweeb (roffle lolzzzz)
Urbtards ((which is what Krittika is lolzzz ))

Anywayz yea.. of course I'm not done checking out words. But yea.. funney stuffs.. lolzzz ( I get bored and amused easily)
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