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 | 10:39 pm
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EDIT: the stupid thing wont let me space out my paragraphs cause dragid probably hasnt been updated in forever so it wont let me. so im sorry that you get one long ass paragraph.
i really havent updated this blog in literally 3 years and yet this is my homepage haha.
I'm a senior in high school now and looking back on alot of my blogs i can honestly say i was a huge loser back then hahah. seriously like wtf. but whatever, people grow up and change yadda yadda. High school is where changes all happen.
i have alot of problems in my life, but seriously who doesnt. i dont have the grades for college, ive finally realized that and im not ending up at a 4 year like i planned...i always dream big and it never happens. even if i got to college i dont even know wtf i really want to do with my life. i just want to sit on my ass, play games, sleep and throw a football around and just hang out with friends. but thats never the case unless you hit the lotto or some shit.
i dont have a job, im in fucking debt to my dad for a car accident i got into a couple months back. no one fucking hires me. i havent had a girlfriend all through out high school..yeah i know some are like yeah great job to you! well it gets old after awhile, its nice to have someone to lean on. ive tried like twice or three times this past year and yeah hasnt happened. other girls have liked me but i just didnt like them back, i saw them as something different.
ive done some stupid ass shit to fuck up friendships, but thats high school as they all say. im surprised i havent gotten into a fight yet, i try and stay cool with everyone but you really cant be cool with EVERYONE you meet, a problem is going to come up no matter what. i wish i could change somethings...even though i hate to think that way. ever since sophomore year its put a huge regret on me in two aspects so now i try to live life without regrets even though i still regret...hypocrite am i right? i just say to myself Go Big or Go Home, its been working out alright in some cases hahah.
i feel like im just ranting or i dunno. this is the first time ive really said all my thoughts to someone..technically anyone who actually comes to read this. i have family problems too now that i think about it, but its mostly stuff outside the core family like my dad and my sister. my dad has been a real dick this past year i dunno why. i think he expected too much of me and i didnt come through for him so now its like he secretly gave up which fucking sucks. its seriously the worst fucking feeling letting someone down, it really is. you cant really imagine that feeling unless it happens to you and not something small where its like damn i missed that shot we couldve won the game. no, its something like damn i fucking let my family down like i couldve risen up and been something and shown how great my family is for raising me this way and proven to them what i can do. feel me now?
i dont know what else to say..its all been negatives..lets go with positives cause thats how i always like to see shit. i like to keep my head up high as much as possible. im a senior in high school which is fucking sick, i came back to football which means im a fucking stud hahah, even though im backing up everyone both offensively, defensively and even on special teams. i have a ton of great friends, about two or three id do anything for. i went back to skating which lets me be free, yeah that sounds gay but it really does so fuck you. i ran track and my first year i was fucking sick, this year? holyshit like..wow if i work out and shit and get faster god fucking damn im going to be insane..not trying to sound conceited or anything.
ive gotten bigger body wise which is sick...im still pretty skinny but im practically all muscle now. im not the skin and bones i used to be. ive gotten taller, i talk more now i dont think im as shy, ive just grown as a person which is a plus in anyones book. i just hope i can keep growing and become whatever i can possibly be.
hmm this killed alot of time but let me get alot out..holyshit hahah. if you read this then wow, thanks like i really appreciate you actually caring about my life. i dont know if feedbacks still work on this shit cause its so full of spam but leave one, id love to hear what you think.
so i guess this is the end, the end of my current life..the life of Kyo hahah. or whatever you want to call me nowadays. ill update this in another 3 years hahah.
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Revived.
Listening to - Kiss and Make Up by Funeral for a Friend
OHSHIET. I AM FUCKING ALIVE.
Summer is here and its time for...football? Yeah, i'm starting up Football, which should be FUN! /sarcasm
Ive been gone from this place for like 2 months or so, due to WoW. Now its been disconnected from me but I have enough for a Game Card, bitches. =D
What else...MySpace is ghey. Even though a shitload of people from my school have it. Its still ghey.
Got a new cell which is pretty rad, and I now have Xbox Live. PM me if you want my name. So I can ownz0rs j00.
Listening to - Paper Tigers by Thrice
OHSHIT, I went to Warped Tour too. That was fucking awesome. I saw Silverstein, Atreyu, Thrice, Valient Thorr, Riverboat Gamblers, MxPx, and Strike Anywhere. Fucking awesome. I was in the mosh pit for Silverstein and nearly killed myself xD and I crowd surfed during Atreyu which was fucking rad. I loved it, I even got an autographed poster from Riverback Gamblers =D
I moved. Actually, we HAD to move which was fucking gay. I liked that house a lot, but now I have a bigger room and a bigger bed -_^.
I also fractured my wrist a bit ago, had it in a cast for three weeks and now its recovering and stuff so yeah. I think that wraps up my blogger.
So yeah, I decided to update, I'll try and update this bitch more and stuff. So..yeah. Take care and stuff, see yah. | | 8 leave feedback(s) | rate post | report post |  | 1:47 am
Daylight Savings Is Gay.
Listening to - Cygnus...Vismund Cygnus by The Mars Volta
Such a freaking awesome song.
Anyway, Friday, did nothing.
SATURDAY! I went to a prty for my cousin and uncle and I got to be the bartender =D So, i served some drinks, had a screwdriver for myself and i took my first shot with my uncle's friend, and my friend, straight vodka. DAMN that burned so bad. And that was like her 5th one. So by the end of the night I was dancing a bit and i finally crashed out about 6 am when the party finally ended.
Today/Yesterday: I made 60 bucks in tips in my bartending thingy =D and we went to the movies and I paid for everything but i was paid back so it was cool. We saw Miss Congeniality 2, the first one was better, this one sucks. The we saw Guess Who which was pretty funny.
Came home, got questioned by my dad why I came home late (I got home at around 12:30am) and then did my Art report which i finished about 30 minutes ago biatches. And I should be asleep right now, I have school tomorrow. Its just about 2:50 so blah.
Listening to - The same damn song. Its like 13 minutes but it owns :P
Oh yeah, if you play WoW. My name is FalkenBlaze on the Eonor Server. Incase you wanted to know :P
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As you shake to the floor, I'd give all to break your fall...
Listening to - The Well Of Tradition by Before Today
My day has been crap.
So yeah, my basketball team has made it to Citywide Playoffs, I doubt we will win but hey, you never know.
Grades came in, i've been slacking off and I still came out with a 3.0 ^_^
Its now been what, 2-3 weeks since me and my girlfriend broke up, i'm over it now but theres no fucking way we're getting back together or being good friends. For example, I borrowed my moms guitar so i'm trying to learn how to play and stuff and i found tabs for Rise Against and Before Today, so i tell her and the first thing she says with the hugest attitude or like "fuckoffandgetthehellawayfromme" look, she just says "Good for you."
So, i felt like shit for the next portion of the day. So thanks a lot. And yeah.
I dont know, i think I just need to vent...ever since i broke up with her my life has been shit just because i thought "Hey alright, good friends i may have a chance to get back together." NO DUMBASS.
Blah...i just woke up from a nap and now i'm all pissy..-__-
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When we had fun, we had fun...we had fun...
Listening to - Pierce The Veil by Before Today
Yeah so i decided to update.
School has been shit for the past month. My science teacher is gay and yeah.
I got FIFA 2005 BAM that game is the shizit. So yeah, because of that and Halo 2 and some homework and chores i havent been online or in the Dragid room.
Also, me and my girlfriend kinda broke up. She said that famous line, "Its not you, its me." and yeah. She said once she kinda clears her head of school and soccer and stuff theres a big chance that we will get back together..but for now..i miss her..a lot. T_T
I wrote a song about it, i might post it but i dunno. So yeah, thats my life right now. its Basketball, School, Missing my girlfriend/being together with her, and Xbox. Yep, and now I cant listen to Swing Life Away by Rise Against because it reminds me of her.
Listening to - Shallow Pockets by Before Today
Awesome band, check em out. and yeah. thats all i have for you guys, my computer is almost up along with Xbox live and shizit like that. Well, see yah. | | 4 leave feedback(s) | rate post | report post | | Home | Older Blogs >> |
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